Personal history is hard to share but everyone’s story matters and that includes mine. I have been told many times that I should write a book and I laugh and say I did “Mattie’s Legacy”, But I know what they meant. They were referring to my personal journey. But I don’t like to look too long at the past, but it is important to review it to mine it for the truth and heal the wounds we covered up along the way.
The tricky part is to not get stuck in the pit of the past.
I was in prayer and meditation one morning just a few weeks ago, and yes, grieving over the past, and this was what the Spirit revealed to me: I saw myself climbing a mountain, and when I looked back I saw the mountain crumbling away into a deep pit, much like what happens during an earthquake, the sides were crumbling away, and I knew if I stayed where I was, I would be lost in the pit, I had to move forward, I couldn’t stay where I was, the journey is not over, and there is only one way open and that is forward. You will look back, I will look back but we cannot stand still in it. There is no life there.
You can only reflect on the past for a beautiful memory, healing, and forgiveness, any other emotions will keep you trapped in a pit only a loving Creator can lift you out of.
He lifted me out of the horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and made my footsteps firm.